“It is hard to believe someone after betrayal“
I am a 36 years old woman. I am working as a teacher, a mother of a 6-year-old girl and a widow. My husband died two years back and now I am staying with my parents in their house. Things are better now, I am struggling to live and tries to be happy. It is hard to live life without the one you loved the most.
Seven years back, I got married to the love of my life. I was on cloud nine, he loved me a lot and I loved him even more. It was very hard for us to convince our parents but we did it and got married. I was much more happy than my husband as I had seen rejection since I was 21 due to my not so good looks. My husband was very handsome, funny, caring and cool person, I have ever met.
We were blessed with a beautiful daughter soon. I left my job to take care of my daughter. My in-laws were not much happy with me as I was not their choice. Everything was somehow going smooth till I found something suspicious going on in my husband’s life. I found sim cards hidden here and there. I saw him chatting and texting in the middle of the night. Soon we started fighting over this. It is the beginning of the worst phase of my life.
My in-laws were also aware, that something is going wrong. After almost 2 years when the water is over my head, I talked to my parents about this. They were shattered by hearing this as they always treated him like their son. He was so good to them that my parent questioned me about my doubts. But soon I was able to make them understand that he was not what he was showing us. He was involved in gambling. My father-in-law even paid a huge amount to some people from which he took money but still, he didn’t have a sign of regret on his face.
With all the sleepless nights and fights, I started my job again after my daughter started going to school. Although my in-laws were against it, I somehow started doing the job. Now every passing day is a hell. They taunt me, my parents and my family. On the other side, my husband is busy with his own things. He was out from the house most of the time saying he is taking tuitions.
On my continuous request, my parents hired a private detective. My in-laws were aware that my father is spying on him. My doubt comes true as he was involved with a woman who was also married. They were having affair before our marriage. I just couldn’t believe this as he always told me that he loved me and whenever I said we should not get married, he used to tell me he will commit suicide if I ever think like that. He convinced his and my parents, then how come he do this to me. He was having affair with that woman althrough the years I got married to him.
Finally, we decided to catch him red-handed and we did that. I slapped that girl and him. I don’t know what he looked into her. Although I say that I am not that great looking but she was not even inch closer to me. I want to kill myself and both of them. I was in dilemma to quit our relationship or going along with him. I was trying but he was not in the mood to continue with me. He stopped talking to my parents and his father. His mother somehow has a soft corner for him and she is brainwashing my father-in-law’s mind as well.
So then one day, he tried to slap me and when I shouted he blamed me that I was slapping him. His mother and father said everything to me that they should have said to their son. They blamed me for our failed marriage. They say all bad for me and my family. It was unbearable and I left their house. My parents supported me at every point. We went to a lawyer but everyone suggested to give time as it is not easy for a single woman to survive in the society.
It was during my summer break, my parents suggested that I should visit my sister so that I have some change. I went there with my daughter. I was there but my soul is still with the man I loved the most. The second day he met my parents saying that he is not well and want to meet me. My parents thought he will realize his mistake soon and will come back to me. Next day he called my sister and talked to me and said he is not well. He shouted at me and ask for the medical card. He didn’t ask me to come. My sister took the phone and ask him to lower his voice and talk properly. He put the phone down. Two days after this, I decided to go back. But as soon as I reached my home my parents told me that he is severely ill and the doctor referred to another hospital in the same city where my sister was living.
My in-laws didn’t bother to inform me or my family. We came to know about his health from a person who saw an ambulance outside my in-law’s house. I rushed back to Delhi just praying for him. I was angry with him but I loved him badly. All the relative and my in-laws were looking at me and my father as if all that happened is our fault. They were not allowing us to see him. I request to a staff member to arrange a pass for us. Those 3 days were hell for me. My father, I and my family members were sitting separately. It was daytime and I was getting impatient, I asked my father I want to see him. He said to wait for a while but my heart was beating fast. I didn’t listen to him. I went to ICU to see him. I was holding his hand and suddenly his heart was pumping heavily. His whole body was shaking and then suddenly he becomes still. I thought he might wake up. I shouted doctor, nurse please come. The doctor came and said he was no more. My father who was waiting outside came inside and hold me. I was crying badly. I have lost the most precious thing in my life, the person who gave meaning to my life.
Life is going on now. I don’t know what was my fault and what I am paying for. Now everyone in my family wants me to move on. They want me to get married again. I am not able to cope up with this. I have my daughter with me. Can a new person love her as a father does? What’s your take on this?
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